tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-51014298606008373412024-02-07T04:26:36.773-08:00Daisy Scented DreamsI live in beautiful Tasmania with my partner, his two children, his Seeing Eye Dog and two felines. We are expecting our first baby together. I work as a teacher. I love the bush, sleeping in, raspberries, rivers and reading.Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.comBlogger74125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-49730358714623036142014-12-17T02:28:00.001-08:002014-12-17T02:28:59.596-08:00Let me explain. No, there is too much. Let me sum up.Okay, so the title of this post is a quote from one of my all time favourite movie characters, Inigo Montoya, from my all time favourite movie, The Princess Bride. (If you haven't seen it, I question whether we can be friends.) <div><br></div><div>It seems fairly apt given that I have neglected my blog for so long and way too much has happened to cover in detail. So instead I will give a brief summary...</div><div><br></div><div>-To use a cliche, I've been juggling work and motherhood and definitely finding it a challenge.</div><div>-We bought a house and moved into said house. Love it. Did not love packing and moving. </div><div>-Our littlest family member is now 18 months old and walking here there and everywhere. </div><div>-It's nearly holiday time...</div><div><br></div><div>Yes, two more days of work and I will be free for a glorious six week stretch. Though tomorrow is my last day with my gorgeous Kinders and I'm already feeling emotional. Not so emotional that I'm not ready for a break, mind. I can't wait for summertime adventures and lots of time with my family, especially my little boy who I miss so much when I'm working. I'm also looking forward to breathing some life back into this blog. I promise! </div><div><br></div><div>I will leave you with my current favourite photo, taken two weekends ago... </div><div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV1tJfJLlW-4tmxCYlmLM6FRCN-i1E4dkDvLguV5tXsGJcymg-XuPFkjEHp4UzMfrBT71Ry3uBT4OdK6nqSqKrlPjkaY_3xZgRLnym7valMbnjPGxHUuZZCXSEdSijVnjCRXhugZPvhEU/s640/blogger-image--1913565137.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV1tJfJLlW-4tmxCYlmLM6FRCN-i1E4dkDvLguV5tXsGJcymg-XuPFkjEHp4UzMfrBT71Ry3uBT4OdK6nqSqKrlPjkaY_3xZgRLnym7valMbnjPGxHUuZZCXSEdSijVnjCRXhugZPvhEU/s640/blogger-image--1913565137.jpg"></a></div></div>Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-56521835548549138462014-07-19T17:37:00.000-07:002014-07-19T17:37:14.763-07:00Birthday Weekend to Mount Cameron, part 1<div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">We drove out here in a convey of three cars this morning and after unpacking and having lunch, spent time on the flying fox which is a blast. <span style="line-height: 24px;">I haven't been on it in a good few years- last time was before I had an abseiling accident and developed a fear of heights- and I was determined to do it and enjoy it. As soon as Dad had checked my harness and I was good to go, I stepped straight off the platform and my nerves disappeared as I felt pure exhilaration. Lisa took this photo of me once I landed on the other side. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I'm now sitting on my bunk holding a sleeping bub (who decided he was not going to have his nap in the portacot, in any way shape or form and wanted to snooze on me instead) while everyone else is outside. Once he wakes up it will be time for Happy Hour- a Mount Cameron tradition of drinks and nibbles in the afternoon, which will be even happier as I will be given some birthday gifts and mysterious cake making has been going on in the kitchen. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I was worried that if Liam didn't nap in the cot and I got stuck holding him I would feel left out of things but I actually feel very happy and peaceful sitting here on my bunk, looking out the window at the bush and listening to the birds. I am looking forward to feeding the possums tonight (they know that the centre being occupied means there is a good chance of fruit being given to them on the verandah) and sitting around the fire tonight toasting marshmallows. To be continued...</span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-52208224725455095402014-07-15T05:33:00.001-07:002014-07-15T16:30:02.898-07:00It's fun to be one<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">So after the drama of having to cancel Liam's first birthday party due to him being so unwell, we held a rescheduled party two weeks later with family and friends. I love to cook and bake and decided I wanted to try my hand at making his special cake...a decision I regretted at 5pm the evening before when I was literally up to my elbows in blue icing and had a 'mum's night out' to get to with the lovely ladies from my Mums and Bubs group (our first catch up without the babies and a rare dinner out for many of us). Who knew using a 'grass tip' icing nozzle to create fur on a Cookie Monster cake would be so time consuming, messy and stressful? I persevered and wasn't unhappy with the end result. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I then got dressed and ready to go out so I could leave as soon as Liam was settled in bed after his bedtime feed. Rookie mistake- as I was getting him out of the bath he did a giant wee all over my pretty dress. Motherhood! Anyway, after a quick change, a breastfeed and a cuddle I was out the door and on my way. After a year of mostly spending evenings at home it seemed surreal to be out after dark. The girls and I had a lovely time. You hear horror stories about mother's groups but I am very glad I joined and found these lovely friends. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I still find it hard to believe that I have a one year old son. He is such a funny cheeky boy and I miss him a lot on the three days a week I'm back at work. I'm currently on term holidays and have been enjoying lots of time with Liam, Rob and the kids as well as fitting in some time to rest and recharge during Liam's naps. Pesto has discovered that I may be on the couch at certain times as well and has been using it to his advantage. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">We are off into the true Tasmanian wilderness on Friday to celebrate my 30th birthday at Mount Cameron. If I find it hard to believe that I have a one year old, I find it even harder to believe that I am turning thirty! I don't feel thirty. It should be a great weekend and I can't wait to head into the bush. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">So my little Liam is one year old. I have no idea how that happened. His birthday was on Sunday and we had a Sesame Street party with our nearest and dearest planned, but spanners were thrown when he went and caught chickenpox. Yep. I ended up in the emergency room on Friday night with a very sick and dehydrated little boy and a sense of panic, after two sleepless nights and a lot of unhappiness from my baby. Rob had to stay at home with the other two children, who were slumbering on oblivious to all the drama. His sister happened to be in town, having flown in for their grandmother's funeral, and came to the hospital to be with me and take turns holding and rocking our miserable little one. Four hours later we were home again, reassured that we were doing all the right things at home and that the rash that had popped up within an hour wasn't as sinister as I had feared. The emergency room on a Friday night is a strange place. No one wants to be there and no one wants to look at anyone else, but yet you can't help looking and wondering. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I was very glad to get home and also glad I had gone for peace of mind. Saturday was spent holding Liam in my arms as whenever he is sick he just wants to be held. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Not many pox on his face- just everywhere else! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">As mentioned above we had a party planned for Sunday but in light of the chickenpox we postponed it and just had close family come over for presents. My wonderful mother organised food and a little cake at the last minute as I was too exhausted to even think about that stuff. He perked up a little but was nowhere near his happy self and wasn't what you could call impressed by his presents. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Even though he had no appetite we offered him a bit of cake to try (baby's first sugar...) but that didn't impress him much either. I was just so grateful to have him breastfeeding again. He is all about breastfeeding normally but didn't want a feed for 24 hours as he felt so unwell, starting from 5am Friday, which along with the rash prompted my dash to emergency that evening. As well as being desperately worried that he wouldn't feed and only wanted a few sips of water, I felt lost not feeding him. It is so special to me and gives me such a sense of joy and peace and fulfilment. When he finally accepted a feed on Saturday morning I cried with relief and knew he would be okay. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">He is on the mend now and we are definitely starting to see our happy boy reemerge. The rash is awful and I feel terrible for him. I feel like I've come through a war (a feeling any parent with a sick child will find familiar!) and am utterly exhausted. It's also been exhausting being back at work, though I have settled in again faster than I thought I would. I am loving finding my feet as a Kinder teacher again though it is hard being away from Liam three days a week. We have also had a lot going on with a death in the family and other family members flying in. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">A fairly joyless post unfortunately. My next one should be full of party goodness. A few weeks from now is my 30th birthday (WHAT???!!) and I am very excited about a little trip we will be taking into the true Tasmanian wilderness, so expect a post about that, too...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Hold you close and breathe you in, deeply, sweetly. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I will feel your hand against my skin </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">With love and gentleness. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">On your breath, the sweet scent of my milk </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Rising like a promise, like a poem</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Hold you, nourish you, keep you safe</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And in your heartbeat, hear my own. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I will kiss you goodbye, and feel the pain of parting</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I will feel my arms yearn to hold your trusting weight</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I will say farewell, sweet boy, and walk away </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">But I will still be yours, and you mine</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Every time for me, and each for you. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Work-weary, pressed down by my day </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">But in seeing you, your smile, such a joy</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Sweet balm for the spirit and the soul</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I will take you into my arms </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And hold you tight </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And feel our hearts together, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Beating just as strongly as they ever did, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And I will see the whole world in your smile. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And I will be the whole world in your eyes. </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-61937909871335281052014-04-17T12:00:00.001-07:002014-04-17T12:02:37.854-07:00The five second rule gone wrongSo we've all heard of the five-second rule. Wherein if you drop a piece of food, it's fine to eat it if you grab it within five seconds. I am a believer in this rule. Rob is not. To be fair, as he is visually impaired I can see why he doesn't subscribe to this theory. He doesn't allow the children to do so either and thinks it's gross when I do it. But I do it anyway. Because let's face it...as a busy mum, if I am grabbing a piece of chocolate on my way through the kitchen and it slips out of my sleep-deprived fingers and hits the kitchen floor- well, that's <i>my </i>chocolate and I am going to eat it, damn it.<div><br></div><div>However, I may have recently taken things too far. </div><div><br></div><div>It was last Friday night and the kids and baby were all asleep in bed so Rob and I were enjoying some grown-up time. (By this I mean sitting on the couch in our pjs watching half an hour of a movie before I declare I am too tired and head to bed at 8pm. The wild life of motherhood.) To complete the cosy scene, my cat Pesto was nestled against my legs, purring like no tomorrow. He is much cuddlier in the colder months, leading me to feel slightly used. </div><div><br></div><div>On this particular night, Rob and I felt peckish so he went to raid the pantry for something vaguely resembling junk food. It being the end of the week, I didn't hold out much hope. He returned with a Tupperware container half full of cheese flavoured rice crackers that we put in the children's lunch boxes. Crunchy, cheesy, vaguely resembling junk food. As he put the open container on the couch between us, Pesto leaned forwards with interest to sniff at it but then decided it was too much effort and settled back against my legs. </div><div><br></div><div>We crunched into them as we continued watching (look, I just said it was 'a movie' but we may have been watching <i>Titanic. </i>Don't judge us) and all too soon they were gone. Drat. I was starting to enjoy the strangely orange cheese flavour. I got up and left the room to wash my hands and when I returned saw a piece of cracker where I had been sitting, which I had obviously dropped. </div><div><br></div><div>Completely without thinking, I grabbed it and put it in my mouth, only to discover to my dawning horror that it was soggy. </div><div><br></div><div>Soggy. </div><div><br></div><div>Cat....interested....sitting next to me...oh God. </div><div><br></div><div>Yep, I now had a piece of cracker in my mouth that the cat had tasted and then spat out. I guess he didn't like the powdered orange cheese. </div><div><br></div><div>After I ran to the sink and spat it out myself, I explained to Rob what had happened as he had only heard my noises of horror. He immediately began laughing uproariously while telling me it served me right and that it would teach me. </div><div><br></div><div>Has it? Maybe. Probably not. But next time I will be more careful and make sure the five second rule is actually only five seconds. I love my cat, but that love doesn't extend to eating food he has had in his mouth and then rejected. No way. </div>Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-999658559706904222014-04-05T01:03:00.001-07:002014-04-05T01:03:46.919-07:00Ready or Not....So... In one month I will be saying farewell to maternity leave, kissing my sweet boy goodbye a few days a week and heading back to work. That year went INSANELY quickly. I have loved having so much time at home with my boy and I am really dreading my return to work. I think it will be hard on both of us but...I know we can do it. At least I have a job that I enjoy, though like all jobs there are good bits and bad bits. Here are some things I'm looking forwards to about returning to teaching...<div><br></div><div>*Having a pay check. Yep. I put that one first. I've been on Leave Without Pay for a while now after using all my paid leave and I'm not going to pretend I'm not wildly excited about actually being paid again. </div><div><br></div><div>* Moments of hilarity throughout the day due to the fact that kids really do say the darnedest things. Like the time I was singing Five Little Ducks with my kinder class and rhetorically asked "Where do you think the little ducks are?" only to have one boy answer "Perhaps a fox dragged them away and ate them." Or the time a grade 2 student was playing a language game and arranging word cards to make sentences...and proudly read out "My dad rides the hairy mother." Moments like that require an intense amount of willpower in order not to burst out laughing. I love it, really I do. </div><div><br></div><div>* Watching children grow and develop under my care. Sounds cliched but it's true. </div><div><br></div><div>* Having fun with my students. Am I the only teacher joining in on the playground and going down the slide or riding tandem on little pedal bikes or dressing up in strange op-shop fashions in the costume corner? Yes. Do I care that I'm the only one? No. Playing rocks, and students adore having their teacher join in on the fun. </div><div><br></div><div>And here are some things I am not looking forwards to...</div><div><br></div><div>* Germs. Kids have a lot of them and they have no qualms about sneezing or coughing right into one's face. Yuck. Teachers pick up a lot of colds. </div><div><br></div><div>* Staff meetings. Enough said. No one enjoys them. No one. </div><div><br></div><div>* Having to have my act together ready to leave the house at 7.45 in order to be at work by 8 so I have time to organise stuff before the students arrive at 8.30 onwards. Those people who snidely remark that teaching must be "an easy job- 9 to 3 and so many holidays!" clearly have no idea. I am up early these days, of course (it happens when you have a baby) but that doesn't mean I am dressed and ready to face the day that early. Blerrrggghhh. </div><div><br></div><div>* Missing my boy. It's going to be hard. I know that. As I said before, it will be hard for both of us and I expect the transitional period to be tough. However, I know he will be in such good hands with either his daddy or his nan and pop. 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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">The morning session lasted an hour. An hour of sitting there holding my sweet boy while he nursed and snoozed, snoozed and nursed. Then he woke up, we walked up to the polling station with the children and then hit up the playground, and then came home in time for his afternoon nap. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Nope. That one was a ridiculous idea too. So once again I found myself on my bed, holding him. An hour stretched into two, then towards three. I could hear the rest of the family at the other end of the house. I could hear my own thoughts. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i>There were things I needed to get done today while he was napping...there are things I should be doing...I should be stricter on him and persist with getting him into bed. I should be spending time with the rest of the family, doing chores and housework, cooking, working on my scrapbook, having me time...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Then I stopped, and took a breath. I looked at my little boy, so peaceful in my arms, one little hand soft and warm against my breast, his eyes closed as he slept deeply and sweetly. As I held his trusting weight, I realised. What I 'should' have been doing...was exactly what I was doing. Holding, nurturing, loving. Being in the moment with my baby, as he is growing so very fast and all too soon, the times when he lay in my arms and nursed and snoozed, snoozed and nursed will be but a memory. There was no one else who needed me in that moment as he did. And just as equally, I needed him. So I held him a little tighter, and I breathed him in, and I let go of what I should be doing and gave myself to the moment. </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-62391518850831885312014-01-27T10:08:00.001-08:002014-03-16T16:03:51.656-07:00All Nighters<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: medium;">Staying awake all night in my early 20's looked like this: </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Example 1: Uni assignment due in three days, oh my god! Consume Diet Coke while staring at computer screen. Eventually decide to go to bed and work on it in the morning as far too tired now. Go to bed, be unable to sleep due to caffeine. Lie there, jittery and anxious. Feel alone. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Example 2: Drinks. Many. Ah, to be 22 again. World of pain to follow. Feel alone in my misery. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Example 3: My old friend, insomnia. Lie awake for hours, retreat to couch to watch random Nicole Kidman movie and eat toast. Feel alone. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Now...fast forward to my late twenties. (Pause while I reel in horror that I am in my late twenties. I had a moment the other day when I realised I am three years older than the characters on Friends when the show began. What??!! Next thing we know I'll be the same age as the Sex and the City girls. How did this happen?)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Example 1: Heavily pregnant. Lie on couch as bed has become torture rack. Watch random episodes of Survivor. Feel a little person performing acrobatics in my tummy. Feel close to my unborn baby even in the midst of my sleepless frustration. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Example 2: Sick baby. The last week has been a long one as my little boy has been very unwell and unwilling to settle anywhere but my arms at night. Last night we progressed to him settling in his pram for short periods but it's still a delicate situation. I don't know about you, but trying to sleep while sitting up holding a 11.5kg seven month old baby is not an easy feat. Tonight he progressed from wanting to be held tight against me to rolling around and making me his personal mattress. Filled with the optimism tinged with desperation one only feels when it is 4.30am and no sleep has been had, I gently lowered him to the bed next to me in the hopes that we could peacefully lie next to each other for a few hours of co-sleeping slumber. The next thing I knew, by the dim glow of the night light, I could see a pair of eyes looking into mine. Then a cheeky grin spread across his face. Then he whispered what sounded like "Oh. Mama," as he rolled towards me, took my face in his hands and chuckled. Yep, the virus is leaving him and returning my happy boy to me. Suddenly I didn't feel so tired. Instead I felt so grateful that even when I am up all night now, I am not alone. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And the best part? I just put him into his own bed and he has happily self settled after rolling around chatting to himself while I wrote this. It's time for me to bury my head in the pillow, reclaim my bed and my body for the first time in a week and- </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-22590702434416213922013-11-01T00:58:00.001-07:002013-11-01T01:01:40.669-07:00Beneath the ripples of my secret heart<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I hold my baby in my arms, watching the perfection of his sleeping face, listening to the steady peace of his breathing, feeling his warmth, smelling the sweet scent of my milk on his breath. It is 4am. My eyes are heavy, so heavy. This is the seventh time I have gotten him back to sleep tonight and I know that when I put him back in bed, I am only buying myself another thirty minutes. Would it be easier to just hold him? I feel the all-consuming weariness of month after month of shattered sleep.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I sit in the shade of a tree with a group of new friends and their babies. We talk, we laugh, we watch our babies interact, we share trials and tribulations from this journey called motherhood. I manage to laugh, to smile, to enjoy myself. I share that things are still hard.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>Shut up. You talk about the problems you are having too much. Surely everyone is sick of hearing about how many times he wakes up and how tired you are. If they aren't tired of you yet, they will be soon.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>Shouldn't you be doing the things you never have time for? Shouldn't you be folding the washing, dusting the bookshelves, tidying that cupboard? Do you want people to think your house is messy? Keep it perfect, please.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The baby drifts off in my arms after his midday feed. I sit on the couch and hold him, letting him sleep, wanting a respite from the battle of getting him to settle in his own bed. Wanting the closeness, the comfort.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>You're making it worse! He will never learn to sleep in his own bed if you let him nap in your arms!<br /> </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>I am the voice of Post-Natal Depression. I am not a logical voice. I am not a rational voice. But I am a loud voice, and I will be heard. You will hear me, you will heed me, you will feel me consume you with despair. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I know you now. I know why I have been feeling like the waters are closing over my head. I know why I have felt in the depths of despair, unable to sleep even when the baby sleeps, unable to deal with any extra stress or change. I know you want to take hold of me. Your voice is loud.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">But mine is stronger. My voice endures. My voice is buried under yours for now, but I have done this before and I will do it again. I will fight off the darkness and my voice will be the loudest. I will ask for help. I will take my baby out in the fresh air and breathe in the springtime. I will accept that he is a difficult baby with settling issues that are not my fault. I will spend time with friends, old and new, and accept support. I will marvel in the changes I see as my baby grows day by day. I will feel joy as he smiles, an uncomplicated smile of pure delight and unconditional love, when he sees me. I will cry, and cry, and be held by those who love me, and know that the clouds will part. The sun will shine. My baby will sleep one day and I will feel this dark passenger leave. This too shall pass.</span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-87665732482590339082013-09-26T03:14:00.000-07:002013-09-26T03:18:53.987-07:00I Was Treading Water, Now I'm Starting to Swim<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Boy, has it been a rough road. I love my little Liam more than I can put into words, and we have had some amazing and joyful times together, but having a baby with major sleeping issues has been a challenge, to say the very least. Since my last blog post, Liam has been very unsettled. He stopped sleeping in three hour blocks all night and instead started waking up every hour all night long and being very difficult to settle throughout the day. The first time it happened of a night I said to Rob, "Well, that was a tough night. Here's hoping it doesn't happen again." And then it did happen again. And again. And again. And then it turned into weeks, and then months.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">There is a reason sleep deprivation has often been used as a form of torture. There were days when I would just cry and cry. There were nights when Rob and I would get into a silly argument at 3am, both so exhausted that we lost all patience with each other. There were times when I felt like I was going mad. I am quite certain that I became very depressed for a few weeks. Having battled depression for the past 13 years, since I was sixteen (there, I said it- it doesn't have to be a dark secret) I can recognise the signs in myself and I stopped wanting to go anywhere or do anything. Simple tasks became insurmountable. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Through it all, I just kept on going. I got up each morning and cuddled my little boy and tickled his toes and sang to him and watched him grow. I marvelled that it was possible to exist on so little sleep. I forced myself to take a walk with Liam every day in the fresh air. I started attending a mother's group and made some wonderful new friends who have been a great source of support. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I kept going. I was treading water, barely staying afloat, but making it through the days.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Through it all, we started to ask for help. I acknowledged the situation to my mother's group and received sympathy and support. I admitted how hard it was on Facebook and found friends with and without children reaching out to me to offer encouragement and advice. My parents returned from <a href="http://daisyscenteddreams.blogspot.com.au/2013/03/bittersweet-adventure.html">the island</a> at long last and were an instant source of help. We asked and asked our Child Health Nurse for more assistance. She was compassionate to some degree but kept telling me that he was waking up so often because he is a big baby and needed extra feeds. I knew it was more than that. We tried to get in to see some of the support staff at Walker House. Calls were not returned, requests for referrals were not deemed necessary. "No one will help us!" I sobbed to Rob in utter despair.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Finally we went to see my GP- my lovely GP Paul, who has been my doctor since I was eight years old. He listened, he asked a few questions. He wrote a referral to Walker House and diagnosed Liam with reflux. Reflux, the cause of many babies being unsettled and waking often. I felt terrible that my little boy had been uncomfortable and in pain. We were given medicine to try and managed to work out how to get Liam to swallow it so that I didn't end up coated in it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">It was still difficult. I was still exhausted. I was treading water, looking at the shore which was now in sight, keeping my head above water. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Finally, Walker House got back to me and a child health nurse called Gaylene arranged to visit us at home on Wednesday of this week. I was relieved, anxious and nervous, all at once. Things had started to slide backwards again with more night wakings and I could feel myself starting to sink again. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">It was a difficult day. Gaylene was lovely, kind and supportive but very no nonsense as she told us that though the reflux had led to Liam's frequent wakings, he had gotten into the habit now and we needed to help him learn to go to sleep on his own- without being held in our arms or nursed to sleep. This, she assured us, would lead to him self settling through the night and sleeping for longer. Together, we tried. I stayed strong as she taught me to stay with Liam and support him as he cried in bed by patting, shushing and soft singing. My heart broke watching and hearing my little one cry for me to pick him up. I kept telling myself that I was doing this for him, to help him, to give him the gift of good sleep habits. I reminded myself that he must be just as tired as I am and needs my help. We stayed by his side, her hand on my shoulder when she knew I needed a little extra strength, and I watched him grow calm and begin to soothe himself by sucking his fists. 'How do you feel about a thumb sucker?' she asked with a smile. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We nearly got there. We were very close, but he was due a feed and she advised it best to get him up while he was calm, feed him and try again next time. She left us with the promise to return the following week. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I had been sure that Liam would feel hurt or betrayed, but he was as cuddly and loving with me as usual. As soon as he seemed tired again I popped him in bed, kissed his cheek and told him to have a little sleep. I left the room. He grizzled for a minute or two then was silent. I peeked in to see him busily playing with and sucking his hands. Normally he would be crying by now and I would be in there picking him up. A few minutes later I peeked again- to find him fast asleep, arms stretched above his head, the picture of contentment. I could not contain my joy and amazement. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">This morning I stood looking at my settled baby, again peacefully snoozing on his own. I marvelled that he had slept for a three hour stretch last night. I felt proud of him. I felt overwhelming love. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We have still had a few times today that have been difficult. I am sure there are more difficult times to come. He is still learning to settle. But he has come so far already. I can see now that if we persist we will get there and we will all enjoy more sleep. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I am starting to swim now. My head is above the water and I am making for the shore with strong, clean strokes. I was treading water, now I'm starting to swim. </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-64910448781094306462013-08-05T19:52:00.001-07:002013-08-05T19:52:52.671-07:00Beautifully Busy<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"> Well, I started writing the following on the 23rd of July and am only just now getting back to it...which sums up how busy it is having a newborn!</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I turned 29 yesterday. One more year as a 'twenty-something'. It was a lovely day spent with Rob and our little Liam, who is now 6 weeks old (the other children are with their mother). I told Liam that all I wanted for my birthday was a sleep-in. He interpreted that to mean 6am instead of 5am- but hey, I can't complain, as Rob took him out to the lounge room after I fed him and I stayed in bed for a few more hours, which was heavenly. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I was very spoilt by my lovely man...I am now the proud owner of an iPhone, for one thing. For the past few years I have been saying "I don't need a fancy-pants touch screen phone! I'm happy with my little Nokia which has actual buttons!" Then a few weeks ago Rob got an iPhone and I became immediately jealous of all the games and apps. I suspect the real reason Rob bought me one was because he got tired of me saying "Can I have your phone so I can play Words with Friends?" </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We had a lovely lunch at the Cataract Bistro, though times have certainly changed...while I ate my lunch I was holding a child instead of a glass of wine and trying to juggle breastfeeding with eating gourmet pizza!</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Back to today...things are good though full-on. Liam is currently going through his 8 week growth spurt and is therefore waking every two hours through the night for a feed, which is draining to say the least...I think I was lulled into a false sense of security by a few four, five and even six-hour stretches of sleep! Seeing this face makes it all worthwhile, however.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I didn't realise that I would come to view 3 hours in a row at night and 6 hours all up as a 'great sleep'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I didn't realise that I would learn to do so many things one-handed while holding a baby...eating dinner, brushing another child's hair, sorting washing...being a mother is the true definition of multi-tasking.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I didn't realise that I could love someone so very much.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I didn't realise how amazing my body was to grow this little person, push him out and now nourish him every day.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I didn't realise that seeing my baby boy smile at me would make my heart fill full to bursting with joy and bring tears to my eyes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I knew being a mother would be amazing and exciting and tiring and difficult, but it's so much more than I expected. It's the most wonderful thing I have ever done and nothing has ever felt so right. </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-86926029120309461922013-07-01T20:14:00.001-07:002013-07-17T22:01:09.856-07:00The Birth of Liam<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I had a wonderful doula, Cherie, to support me throughout my pregnancy and birth. A few weeks ago I wrote my birth story for her website and have decided to post it here also. It's quite long but I wanted to get down all the details of the most amazing day of my life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I first heard about doulas three years ago and knew that I wanted to have one when it came time for me to have a baby. Soon after my partner Rob and I found out that we were expecting, we started researching doulas and organised a meeting with Cherie. The minute she left we agreed that we didn’t need to meet with anyone else as we had found our doula. We both found her to be warm, supportive and informative and were thrilled.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">My partner is visually impaired and we knew that having Cherie at the birth would not only provide support for me but for him as well as he would be kept informed of everything that was happening. Cherie also let us know that she would be happy to drive us to hospital when the time came, which was a load off as I had had visions of having contractions in a taxi!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Throughout the pregnancy, Cherie came to our home several times to discuss the birth and provide information and support. These meetings were invaluable to set my mind at ease regarding any concerns I had, and Rob and I both felt so comfortable with Cherie that we were able to tell her anything and feel like we were talking with a trusted friend.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The week leading up to the birth was fairly difficult. My due date had come and gone and I was uncomfortable, sore and sleep deprived. We had an appointment on the Monday for a stretch and sweep and learnt that I was already three centimetres dilated. However, my blood pressure was also high and an induction was booked for the coming Sunday, when I would be ten days overdue. This frightened me as I had always been very clear that I did not want to be induced. I felt it went against everything I had been learning in my prenatal yoga classes and would not give me the calm birth I wanted. The next few days were somewhat stressful as Sunday started to loom closer. Cherie was a rock during this time, offering support and encouragement over the phone and by text, and it was wonderful having her to talk to. Rob was also amazing at putting up with my mood swings!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">My waters finally broke at 12.45am on Friday morning and Cherie arrived to take us the hospital for a check up at 8am. Imagine my dismay when the doctors were not convinced that my waters had actually broken! The doctor also seemed of the opinion that the scheduled induction was a certainty, which was not helpful. Cherie was quick to allay my worries and with the help of her and Rob, I focused on the positives and the fact that it was my body and that I knew that my waters had broken and that labour could not be far off. We returned home to get some rest with Cherie checking up on me throughout the day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Saturday morning I awoke at 4.30am feeling strange. Moments later I had my first contraction. I walked around the lounge room until 5am, breathing through a few more contractions, before waking Rob at 5am and telling him I needed him. We sat together in the lounge room for half an hour as Rob slowly woke up fully, with the contractions now 5 minutes apart and growing stronger. As they increased in strength I found I needed to be upright and leaning forwards and found myself kneeling and leaning over the arm of the couch. A shower helped relax me but it was difficult having contractions in the shower with nothing to lean on or hold onto so I returned to my place on the couch, rocking and circling my hips with each surge. I also began to get sick after each contraction. In between looking after me, Rob contacted the hospital at 6am and Cherie at 6.16am to let her know what was happening. Over the next hour the contractions increased in strength and duration until by 7.30am they were two minutes apart and about 30 seconds to a minute long. I was starting to find it harder to cope and Rob rang Cherie to let her know that I would like her to come over now. When Cherie arrived at 8am she brought with her a sense of calm and I felt new energy. She sat with me and timed several contractions, and gave me a cloth with some essential oils to help with the nausea. From the time Rob had woken up I had realised that I didn’t want anyone asking me any questions during contractions, which he also realised quickly from my first ‘Shush!’ As I laboured on the couch, one of my cats jumped onto the chair directly in front of my face and meowed at me in an undeniably questioning way, right in the middle of a contraction. I have to say I reacted by pushing her off the chair with a hand to her face! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Just after 8.30 I felt that it was time to go to the hospital. It was four hours since I had woken up. The contractions were getting even stronger and the pain was starting to move down my back and legs, and there didn’t seem to be much ‘recovery’ time between them. I let Cherie know that I was ready and she and Rob started getting the bags organised. I nearly made it to the front door before being hit by another big contraction, which had me leaning forwards over my desk. Cherie started rubbing my back with firm, calm strokes which felt wonderful and definitely helped ease the pain. We made it to the car and I got into the back seat while Rob and his Seeing Eye Dog, Jasper, sat in the front with Cherie. The car trip was one of the most difficult parts of labour as I was hit by several contractions, which were agony when sitting upright. Cherie advised me to sit on the floor behind her seat and lean over the backseat, which made the journey bearable. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We made it to the hospital and after another contraction next to the car with Rob holding me up, we headed inside. I knew I didn’t have long before the next surge and so moved as quickly as I could towards the labour ward, at one point almost leaving Rob, Jasper and Cherie behind. I made it to the doors and Rob rang the bell and let them know we had arrived, just as I was hit by another surge that had me leaning over some chairs in the corridor. The midwife who had been assigned to us, Mel, came out to take us through to a delivery suite. I felt relief when we entered the room as I knew I could focus now and not worry about going anywhere else. Mel wanted to hook me up to the monitor to check on the baby, so while she did that Cherie calmly moved about the room dimming the lights, putting on instrumental music and putting some new essential oils on a cloth for me. Mel left us to it for a while and Cherie and Rob helped me get my nightie out and put it on, which made me feel a lot better. I knelt up on the bed leaning forwards over the bed head, and when Mel returned I asked for some gas and air. This definitely took the edge off the contractions somewhat, though they were still difficult. Rob asked if I wanted my sister Lisa to come to the hospital and I replied with a definite yes, so he called her to let her know we needed her. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">By 9.45am the contractions were growing even stronger and I was in a lot of pain, though still fairly silent. Cherie was wonderful at getting me to focus on the music and the sound of the gas and air as opposed to focusing on the pain. She also suggested a heat pack which Rob held on my back as I knelt next to the bed leaning forwards. Mel knelt down next to me and said that she didn’t want to worry me but the baby’s heart rate was going up and down a bit, probably as I was dehydrated from being sick all morning. She said they wanted to give me some fluids but could try getting me to drink some cordial first. By 10.15am my sister arrived. She came into the room as I was breathing through a contraction, so it took me some time to acknowledge that she had arrived. I felt so surrounded by support from Rob, Lisa and Cherie and it was such a calm atmosphere in the room despite the pain I was in. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The decision was made to put a line in to give me some fluids, so Dr Kate arrived to do so. Sitting still during this process, during which several contractions occurred, was not easy. Once the line was in I resumed my position kneeling over the head of the bed, with Rob sitting next to me and Lisa and Cherie taking turns to rub my back. I felt so focused on the contractions that I wasn’t always fully aware of what was happening around me, only that everyone was supporting me. I remember opening my eyes to see Rob sitting next to me and saying “Hi baby” as he had been hanging back while the doctor worked on putting the line in so I didn’t feel overcrowded. Lisa left the room twice to keep my parents informed over the phone as to what was happening. They were <a href="http://daisyscenteddreams.blogspot.com.au/2013/03/bittersweet-adventure.html">waiting on Maatsuyker Island</a> to hear any news and were very tense.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">At 10.50am things felt different. I felt an immense amount of pressure and the urge to push. I groaned that I wanted to push and Mel told me that I needed to wait a little longer and breathe through a few more contractions. This was not easy as the urge was growing stronger and stronger, but my team kept encouraging me to just breathe. Apparently at this point, Jasper became anxious over the noises I was making and tried to come forwards from his place in the corner. It took some reassuring words from Rob to get him to settle down again. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Finally, at 11.30am, I was told that I could start pushing, which I immediately did so with the next contraction. Another midwife, Janet, was brought in to assist with catching the baby and I realised that the end was indeed in sight. I continued kneeling up over the bed while I pushed, resting my body forwards onto the pillows between pushes. My legs were starting to feel very shaky, weak and tired. I could hear the voices of the midwives, Cherie, Rob and Lisa encouraging me which gave me something to focus on. Cherie left the room to call my mum and tell her that I had started pushing and that the next call would be to tell them that the baby had arrived, which made Mum very excited and emotional. At 11.50 I was asked to turn onto my back for an internal examination. I immediately felt more comfortable and it gave my legs a rest, though I expressed concern as I had wanted to give birth in an upright position as I had learnt in yoga. Everyone reassured me that whatever felt the most comfortable was the right way, and Mel confirmed that I was pushing better now that I was propped up on my back. The internal confirmed that all was well and Mel told us she could feel the baby’s head. I continued to push, focusing on the voices of my team, holding Rob’s hand and feeling the support all around me. Rob stayed by my side, feeling through my hand and the tension in my body as I pushed and telling me how well I was doing, especially after the big pushes. Lisa praised me for not wasting energy by making noise and at 12.05 the baby’s head crowned. I reached down to touch him and felt overwhelmed that I had nearly done it. Rob also felt the baby’s head and found it a wonderful experience. As I prepared to push again, Cherie calmly told me that the next part would be painful but that I could do it. She was right; it was an intense and different kind of pain as I pushed as hard as I could and felt my baby’s head and body slide out of me in one contraction. I was overwhelmed that he was here and so quickly, and kept repeating “Is he here? He’s here!” as my beautiful boy, Liam Craig, was brought up onto my chest for skin-to-skin contact. With his arrival came a whole new chapter in our story. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Born on the 8th of June 2013 at 12.12pm after an 8 hour labour, weighing 8 pounds 8 (3.8 kilos) and 55cm long. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I am thrilled to bits with my little one. We spent four nights in hospital and are now settling in at home. Life is a blur of feeding, changing and cuddles and very little sleep but I have never felt more like 'me' in my life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I will post more on his arrival soon when I have had a bit more time to recover.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">3am: Woken by baby bouncing on bladder. Groan and heave self from bed. Remind self to hold onto walls on way to bathroom as balance is way off. Return to bed, return to same stupid sleeping position that causes sore hips but is only position left at this stage.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">7am: </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Partner gets up for work. </span>Decide that have become too uncomfortable to stay in stupid bed. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Construct couch
fortress consisting of 2 pillows, 1 maternity pillow, 4
cushions, 1 quilt and 1 purring cat. Burrow into said fortress. Farewell partner as he heads off to work. Snooze. Congratulate self on having the foresight several years ago to buy a reclining couch.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">11am: Manage to get dressed. Overcome by nostalgia for the days of putting on socks without groaning. Stagger into nursery. Stare at hospital bags. Contemplate opening them to check contents. Decide this is crazy as have already checked, double-checked and re-checked. Step away from the bags. Open drawers and stare at weeny folded socks and singlets. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">1pm: Visit from sister. Tell her that it feels as though the baby will never come, and that this pregnancy has no foreseeable end. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">2pm: Feel uncontrollable urge to buy vast amounts of cat food for pantry so that the cats don't starve to death whilst in hospital. Realise partner is quite capable of buying cat food, but unable to resist. Drive to local grocer. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Reflect on
lowered standards- eg have transformed from person who never went out in
trackpants into person who always goes out in trackpants. </span>Forced to engage in conversation with jolly shop assistants who offer tried-and-true methods to bring on birth. Commend self on appearing interested and open to suggestions when actually feel like throwing gourmet spice cookies at their heads. Locate cat food and fill basket. Find self standing in front of lolly section staring at selection like a crazy person. Give self stern talking to and go to fruit section. Return to lolly section. Self-talk sternly some more and go to check out. Realise family pack of party-mix lollies has appeared in basket. What? When? When? Do not have the strength to return them. Shop assistant asks how many cats one has. Valid question, given quantity of cat food am purchasing. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">3pm: Partner returns from work. Excitedly attempt to run to door to greet him but end up doing a somewhat hasty waddle instead. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">6pm: Cook dinner. Reflect on the good old days when it was easy to get things from the bottom drawers in the kitchen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">8pm: Watch movie in which someone gives birth. Overcome by emotion. Cry into couch pillow fortress. Cat abandons self in disgust. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">9pm: Practise yoga birthing positions, aided by partner. Share current theory with him that baby will never, ever arrive and instead am doomed to wander/waddle/stagger around in pain and discomfort forever. Am assured that this is ridiculous. Emerge from couch pillow fortress, have big cuddle, laugh together and reflect on our journey and how amazing it is that we are so close to the end now. Realise that of course baby will arrive, and that it will all be worth it. Resolve to hang in there and keep trying to make the best of things. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">38 weeks now...the end is in sight but I swear the last few weeks have been the longest of this entire pregnancy. Remember two weeks ago when I said I still loved being pregnant? Yeah, not so much at the moment. I am sore, teary, grumpy and tired. Emotions are at an all-time high. I woke up in a flood of tears one night from a horribly vivid dream in which I trapped my baby's finger in the car seat buckle...and then kept crying whenever I thought about it over the rest of the day! Oh dear. I just can't wait to hold my little boy in my arms after nine long months of waiting...and be able to put my socks on without puffing. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We decided to hold it at the AMF Bowling centre as we had taken the children there once before and they had loved it, and the thought of just having to turn up and having everything organised was certainly appealing this close to the end of my pregnancy. Harry invited six friends and the price we paid included a game of bowling, decorations, lunch and drinks, huge party bags, cake, and arcade tokens- plus no mess to clean up, and a party host. Well worth it, particularly as I'm running on very little sleep today! It was lovely to see how much Harry enjoyed it. He's been looking forwards to it for weeks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">For the past two days the chorus of the song "<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0s7ycdUcHk">Colorblind</a>" by Counting Crows has been circling my head. <i>I am ready, I am ready, I am ready I am...fine. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The baby capsule has been fitted in the car. The bassinette is set up next to our bed. The change table is stocked. The freezer is full of meals I have cooked. My hospital bag is packed. I am, at 37 weeks, considered to be full term. The baby is in position. I am ready.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Now all I can do is wait.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I love being pregnant and carrying our baby, but I won't deny that I am at the stage of feeling 'over it'. The little one I am carrying has less and less room each day and his kicks and punches are starting to feel quite painful as a result. He also seems to have the hiccups a lot...which is both endearing and frustrating at 2am when it keeps me awake. Last night found me doing laps of the lounge room at 3am, jiggling, in order to try and stop the hiccups and get him off my ribs. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I am feeling grumpy today, and have even Googled "Is being grumpy a sign of early labour?" Ha. I know better than to rely on Dr Google but it's hard to resist. I just feel moody and cross. I did manage to get into the kitchen and produce some pretty yummy Anzac biscuits though, so that's something. But there was also a mini tantrum because I couldn't get my feet out of my jeans as I couldn't bend down, and then my socks got stuck in my jeans and came off, and the thought of having to bend down to put my socks back on again was just <i>too much...</i>oh dear. At times like this, all I can do is be grateful that Rob is very patient. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I can't wait to meet our baby and hold him in my arms. Labour doesn't frighten me at this point. I know it will be hard...the hardest thing I have ever done, but I feel that I can do it. Scratch that, I know I can do it. I had a whinge to Mum on the phone tonight about feeling over it, and feeling bad for feeling over it, and she replied with some Mum-wisdom: "Of course you feel that way. You don't get pregnant to be pregnant. You get pregnant to have a baby, and it's a long time to wait." True. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Anyway, right now I am sandwiched between two purring cats, which has an undeniably therapeutic effect, and am amused by my little one jigging to the music I am playing on my laptop. Much more amusing at 10pm as opposed to 3am. So far I have discovered that he really likes Goyte. Adele, not so much. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Oh, and apparently feeling grumpy can be a sign of early labour- for some women. But it can also be a sign that you were, you know, pacing the lounge room until 3am and it's difficult to put your socks on. </span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-17747012542936475052013-05-02T20:08:00.000-07:002013-05-02T20:18:25.969-07:00Wetlands Walk<br />
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week of the school holidays here in Tasmania and we’ve had a very busy and fun
week with the children so far. We’ve done lots of fun activities at home such
as baking Anzacs, making collages, sewing and curling up to watch movies, as
well as getting out of the house and the city on a few excursions. On Tuesday
we headed to Latrobe to visit Reliquaire, which the children loved, with tasty
stops at the chocolate factory and raspberry farm. It was a great day but the
drive was not kind to my back at this late stage of my pregnancy and I ended up
in a fair amount of pain. Because of this, we changed our plans to drive and
walk to Liffey Falls on Thursday and instead opted to drive less than ten minutes
from our home to the Tamar Island Wetlands. </span></div>
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a list of the birds we might see and both children loved standing on the
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fit, healthy and active throughout my pregnancy so that I am able to enjoy
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My wonderful partner Rob is visually impaired, with very little usable sight. Over the course of our relationship, I have learnt a lot about the realities of living without sight, and have observed the ways in which people interact with him and his Seeing Eye Dog, Jasper. I have come to the conclusion that while some people are great, the majority of people in our society simply do not know how to deal with someone with any form of disability- or possess very bad manners- and that everyone can benefit from some advice on these matters. I've learnt a lot myself about what to do and what not to do, and I have read quite a few etiquette guides for interacting with those who are visually impaired, but felt moved to write my own as the ones I have read tend to be quite broad and do not seem to speak from personal experience or include examples. So here we are...this is my list of suggestions. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Don't </b>stare. Just because someone can't see you does not mean that you should forget your manners and stare. I am frequently astonished at the amount of adults who see Rob and Jasper and stare at Rob unashamedly. Then they usually turn their stare to the person who is with him. Depending on my mood, I either ignore them or they are startled to find that I have taken note of their scrutiny and am looking straight back at them. Staring is rude and there is no need for it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Don't </b>ignore the visually impaired person and speak only to the sighted person with them. This happened to us yesterday and it is quite offensive. We drove into a tyre dealer to get new tyres fitted on the car and Rob got out first with Jasper. As I was getting out I saw that one of the employees had come out to our car and was just standing there looking at Rob and looking uncomfortable, while Rob was unaware that he was there. I deliberately took my time getting out in the hopes that he would greet Rob, but he waited until I was out and greeted me. He then directed his answers to me even though Rob was the one speaking to him about the car. Treat the person as you would want to be treated- there really is no need to be uncomfortable. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Likewise,
answer a visually impaired person when they speak. Rob has at times boarded a bus and asked
"Is anyone in this seat?" received no reply, gone to sit and discovered
that there is in fact a person there. This is embarrassing for him and
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Do </b>feel free to use words like see, watch, look without worrying about causing offence, and don't feel embarrassed or apologise for using them. Visually impaired people use these words too- they are common ways of speech. I will often say to Rob "Look at this," as I put something in his hand, or ask him if he wants to watch a movie or television show with me. He will say things such as "I saw it there the other day." </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Don't </b>ever interfere with a visually impaired person's dog guide, be it a <a href="http://seda.visionaustralia.org/seeing-eye-dogs">Seeing Eye Dog</a> or <a href="http://www.royalguidedogs.com.au/">Guide Dog</a> (most people think that Seeing Eye Dogs and Guide Dogs are one and the same- they are actually completely different organisations). These dogs are working hard to guide their handler and there is a reason they wear a large sign asking you not to touch- it is distracting and potentially dangerous. For that same reason, you should not speak to the dog, either. I am constantly staggered by the amount of people- mainly adults- who try to pat Jasper, or ignore Rob and speak to Jasper. While we are on the subject of Seeing Eye Dogs, stop and think before you use the dog as an excuse to interrupt someone. Would you like to have someone suddenly loom over you in a coffee shop while you are in the middle of a conversation with your partner and start talking about their own dog? This kind of thing happens to us a lot. Unfortunately people seem to think that Jasper being there gives them an excuse to invade personal space and cross boundaries. If you are in a conversation with someone with a Seeing Eye Dog and want to ask questions, that's fine, but keep in mind they have probably answered them a thousand and one times before. Also don't assume that the dog leads a miserable life of servitude. They may look serious, but this is because they are in 'work mode'. They are very different dogs when they have their harness off and receive plenty of affection and attention at home. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Don't </b>offer pity...in fact, do your best not to feel pity at all as visually impaired people neither want nor need it. They are just like you with loved ones, hobbies, interests, jobs. Rob has a full and happy life with a loving partner, two beautiful children and another baby on the way, a job, hobbies and interests, favourite movies, favourite activities...and yet some strangers still feel the need to remark "It's lovely to see that you're out and about." Would you say the same to someone who could see? Rob has accepted his lack of sight as the way things are and does not let it hold him back in any way. He has raised two children as a single father, goes shopping with Jasper's help, goes to appointments, cooks, cleans, gardens, builds computers, sends text messages...and this is not out of the ordinary for him. It's no different to a sighted person leading their life, so put any pity aside as it isn't necessary. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>Don't </b>ever grab a visually impaired person's hand to 'help' them. This can be a shock and throw someone off balance. They will ask if they need help and it is far better for them to hold your arm than to have their hand or wrist grasped. Offer assistance by saying "Do you want me to put your hand on the chair?" in an unfamiliar place, but do not simply grab at them and do so without asking. You may have good intentions, such as the waiter at the Grand Chancellor when we attended High Tea who grabbed Rob's wrist so tightly that his knuckles turned white in order to show him where all the cutlery was, but visually impaired people are good at working these things out for themselves. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I hope this guide offers some insights and guidance and I am happy to answer any other questions people may have. Like I said, it took a while for me to learn some of these things as well. I am so comfortable with Rob and completely used to his lack of sight, and it has never affected our relationship at all. There is only one time that I wished things were different- and that was the night when the mother of all huntsmen spiders appeared on our bedroom wall and I realised that I had no choice but to deal with it myself as Rob couldn't see it. I'm still amazed that the children slept through my screaming. I really don't like huntsmen. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Jasper- truly another member of our family</i></span> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">When we meet someone who is going to completely change our life, we very rarely realise it. I certainly didn't realise the first time I met Rob that I was meeting the man of my dreams, my future partner and the father of my child. I would like to share the story of our first meeting with you. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Back in 2011, I was working as a Literacy Support teacher at a small and friendly primary school in the city. In the second week of the first term of the year, I was asked to do relief teaching on one of the Prep classes on the Friday of that week (my day off) which I happily accepted. In the class was a five year old girl named Mikayla, all blonde hair, gorgeous grin and chirpiness, who I had started working with the previous week as she needed a bit of extra help with her literacy skills. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The first time I met Mikayla, she informed me that her daddy was "very special. He can't see, and so he has a special dog called Jasper to help him. You should meet my daddy!" She also told me that she lived with Mummy for some of the week and Daddy for the rest of the time. On the Friday, she was excited to discover that I was to be her teacher for the day and told me, "I'm at Daddy's today! You can meet him when he picks me up!" </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The day passed in a blur of 23 busy five and six year olds and soon enough it was home time. After I dismissed the students, most ran outside to where their parents were waiting, but one of the fathers- who I instantly noticed was very tall- came into the room, holding the hand of an adorable little blonde boy who looked just like Mikayla, and also holding the harness of a Seeing Eye Dog. Mikayla ran to him for a hug and I followed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">"Hello! I'm Karen. I was Mikayla's relief teacher today. You must be her dad," I said. The man smiled and held out his hand, saying "Nice to meet you- I'm Rob, this is Harry and this is Jasper." I shook his hand, impressed not only by how warm and friendly he was, but that he had held out his hand at the exact height to shake mine. (I was to learn later that he is very good at working out people's heights based on their voices.) We had a little chat about how Mikayla had been that day and how I was a new teacher at the school and had been working with Mikayla on her literacy. I bid them goodbye and watched Rob walk away holding onto his children and Jasper. <i>What a nice man, </i>I thought, <i>and what a good father he seems to be.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I am now going to do something I have not yet done here, and hand the reins of my blog over to someone else temporarily...in this case, Rob himself as he would like to share his own memories of our first meeting and the friendship that began that day.</span><br />
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I first met Karen I was picking my daughter up from Prep. I was quite surprised
when she came over to me where I waited for MJ inside the classroom and
introduced herself. We shook hands and she said that Mikayla-Jade had told her
a lot about me and it was a pleasure to meet me.<br />
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I've often looked back at that moment and thought how warm and caring she is.
For a relief teacher to go out of their way to meet parents and to put so much
heart into their work is really not often found.<br />
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It was such a pleasure to see her other times throughout the year and I was always
greeted by a warm smile. Later in the year when my son Harry began attending
pre-kinder once a week he also had the privilege to have Karen as his teacher
where we would often sit down and chat. These were short minutes no longer than
ten but were really pleasant and I think we both felt comfortable with each
other’s company.<br />
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Jasper even got his trotters in by getting the occasional off-harness time for
a tummy rub and Karen being the big dog lover that she is found a new love
interest.<br />
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It was very fortunate for me that months later and after frequently bumping
into one another we talked more and found that we got along so easily and started
to spend more and more time together.<br />
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Fast forward till now and we are living together, expecting our first child
together and really in a happy place.<br />
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Kaz is my best friend, a beautiful and supportive partner whom I share everything
with and hold nothing back. I love how she reads my expression and always looks
for the best. She has so much to give and really lives life never holding
anything back. She is a really important part of our lives and I am so happy we
are in love with each other and are building an incredible life together."</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My little blog has been reborn this morning with a new name. It is no longer known as Bebb and the Bubs but instead Daisy-Scented Dreams. It was time for a change for several reasons, one being that the name Bebb came from my 'old' life and I wanted a fresh new start to go hand in hand with the new direction my life has taken over the last year. I have also changed my user name from Bebb to Kaz, which is the nickname most people call me by and especially my family. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">The new name has been inspired by several things- 'dreams' refers to my hopes for the future and my own sleeping issues that I continue to work on, and 'daisy-scented' is taken from the song 'Big Jet Plane' by Angus and Julia Stone. <i>'She smells of daisies, she smells of daisies." </i>This song has been my pregnancy song as I have been playing and singing it to the baby since finding out I was pregnant and he definitely responds to it now, so a beautiful song that I have always loved has taken on a new and special meaning. I am hoping that the song will soothe my little one after he is born as well.</span></div>
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Kazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07215675181341943284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5101429860600837341.post-84610029704693442202013-04-21T04:29:00.000-07:002013-04-21T04:29:06.404-07:00Autumn Sunshine<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My pregnancy journey has been amazing. Oh, sure, I have suffered from my fair share of morning sickness and aches and pains, but on the whole I am loving it. I have wanted a baby for so long and my journey has had its ups and downs, but I feel so blessed to finally be growing my own baby. My pregnant body still amazes me. I catch sight of the curve of my stomach in shop windows or mirrors and still feel astonishment that I am looking at my own pregnant belly. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">It has been a long journey so far, and it is fast reaching its end- or rather, its beginning. I have been fortunate enough to have the support of some wonderful people along the way and would like to take a moment to mention them now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My yoga instructor, <a href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sacred-Journey/26584757015">Sarah of Sacred Journey</a>. Deciding to attend weekly pregnancy yoga classes has been one of the best decisions I could have made. Each class leaves me feeling energised, revitalised, relaxed, free from aches and pains and in a better frame of mind, and more and more prepared for the birth. Sarah has such a wealth of knowledge and leads her classes with joy, humour and a sense of calm. I also enjoy the opportunity for a chat with the other mums-to-be before and after the sessions. I plan to continue the classes right up until the birth and am looking forwards to putting the techniques I am learning into practice during labour. One thing she has said has really stuck with me: "The pain you will feel during labour is coming from your own body and therefore it cannot be stronger than you or more than you can bear." This is something I want to remember during my labour. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My doula, <a href="http://doulacheriechugg.com/">Cherie Chugg</a>. A doula is a trained birth partner; someone who is there for you and your partner before, during and after the birth to offer support- both emotional and physical- assistance, encouragement and act as your advocate. She is there from the beginning to the end of the birth as continuous support- something that will be very helpful in a public hospital with no guarantee of having the same caregivers throughout the labour and birth. I decided long ago that I wanted to have a doula with us at the birth and am very happy with our choice of Cherie. We have had several pre-birth sessions together now and I feel relaxed and comfortable with her, as if I am chatting with a trusted friend. She brings a sense of calm and support with her as soon as she steps into our home and I am very grateful to know that that same sense of calmness and support will be brought into the labour room. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">As I said in my last post, my Grandpa Jeffrey passed away last Sunday morning and it hit me fairly hard. Losing both my grandfathers within a twelve-month period was not something I expected. Grandpa Jeffrey was a little different to Pop, however. Pop, my dad's father, has been around since I was born. Grandpa Jeffrey was someone I only met when I was seven years old, back in 1991. How does that work?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">You see, my mother was adopted as a newborn baby. She was adopted by a Tasmanian couple who already had two sons and enjoyed a happy, loving childhood. From the age of four, she knew about the adoption (though it came as an initial shock) but was happy with her adoptive family. Her adoptive father passed away when she was 18 years old, and she lost her adoptive mother to breast cancer when I was less than a year old. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Mum was beside herself with joy and we were so excited, for her and for ourselves at the prospect of a new grandfather. The following week Mum drove to the airport, an hour and a half away, to collect her father, while we waited at home with Dad. When we saw the car we ran out to see our beaming mother, and our grandfather. He wasn't a stranger to us and we ran straight to him, to both be swept up into a tight, tight hug by strong arms. He held us close against his woollen jumper and we laughed for joy. One of the most important things we wanted to know was what to call him. Mum was still calling him Jeffrey- it wasn't until she spent time with her sister that she began to slip into calling him Dad from time to time- and he told us we could call him whatever we wanted to. He told us that his other two grandchildren- our new cousins- called him Grandpa and we quickly decided that Grandpa Jeffrey seemed right.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">He was a big part of our lives from that day. Before too long, we had flown to New South Wales to meet Mum's siblings and stay with Jeffrey in his beautiful home in the Blue Mountains. Mum became very close to her half-sister, who she closely resembled, and we were instantly close to our new cousins. Over the years Jeffrey would visit us or we would see him, and he loved to spoil us at birthdays and Christmas. He took us to the beach and would carry us, one at a time, out into the crashing waves and hold us tight while jumping the waves. He never forgot a birthday or passed up the opportunity to see us. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The last few years of his life were hard. Due to several poor decisions, he lost his highly successful law practice and his lovely home and moved into a small flat. He lost none of his spirit and passion. He may have had flaws, but we never doubted his love for us and he has undoubtedly left a hole in our lives. He was unwell for some time before slipping away on Sunday, and though I am sad I did not see him again before the end, I am also glad in a way that I did not see him in a coma. I am glad I can remember him as he was- loud, and jolly, and full of life, jumping the waves and keeping us safe. </span></div>
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